These past two months as I have been on maternity leave a lot has been on my mind. Like how my roles as a mother, wife, blogger, employee, business owner, and person has drastically changed as we’ve added another baby to our family.
I’m that type of person who has A LOT of goals, aspirations, interests, and passions. My one problem is the time I have to spend on these things has decreased a lot as my family grows. I try to put my needs first, because I find when I do this I’m a happier mom, wife, and person. My husband and family are right there behind taking care of myself. Then my passions and aspirations come third. As I’ve gazed into my little son’s beautiful big blue eyes these past two months, I knew I was going to have to prioritize what I wanted to spend my time on because I don’t have the time to do it all. With one child I felt like I could do the majority of what I wanted, but now with two kids, that is no longer a reality.
With all of my household duties, watching two young children, working almost full time with my blog, running my bra fitting business, managing social media for another company, while trying to squeeze time with my husband, workout, church duties, and friends; I knew I was going to have to let some things go. Not just to save my sanity but to survive.
For a long time I’ve felt scared to pursue some of the things I really want to, but recently I’ve felt inspired that 2015 is the year I’m going to be brave, fearless, and get a little uncomfortable. And that makes me excited.
Sometimes in life you get really comfortable, and the thought of taking away that is terrifying. I feel like I got to the point in my life where I was getting too comfortable when it came to my goals and aspirations (dreaming about one day when I get the time, but not actually doing anything about them), and my job. I work part time for an online company managing their social media from home. They’ve been really good to me, I have learned a lot from them, and it’s been really nice to have some extra income while my husband finishes his Masters’. But I felt like the time I was spending at my social media job wasn’t getting me to my end goal.
For over a year now I’ve had the strongest impression that I’ve needed to start some kind of business that has to do with bras. For the longest time I didn’t know what bra niche to go into. After much thought, talking to loved ones, I finally had an “AHA!” moment where I knew the route I needed to take and what type of product I needed to focus on.
Today, as I was cleaning up my office (it’s been over two months since I’ve used this room), I was going through some old notes and there it was, the “AHA!” idea that came to me last week. I was writing down ideas and must have had this idea come to me months ago and completely forgot about it. I guess it’s meant to be, but I’ve been too scared to do anything with this idea.
I’ve been too damn scared to start this business because of fear. Fear of failure, fear of rejection, fear of spending lots of money, fear of going into debt, fear of not loving it, fear of me not being able to juggle my roles as a mother, wife, sister, daughter, friend, and business owner. Pretty much I’ve had a lot of fears but something inside of me is telling me I need to do this, I need to give this a try.
Like I mentioned above, to pursue this I knew I needed to let some things go in my life to have the time do this. So this week, I did something I was really scared to do. I quit my part time social media job. It was scary for me to lose that income. I didn’t want to feel regret for quitting, and I was scared that I wouldn’t be able to make up that income in some other way. I kept on going back and forth for a long time while I was on maternity leave but knew deep down inside that it was the right decision for me professionally, personally, and for my family. I needed to have more FAITH that everything would work out.
It’s only been a couple of days and so far I’ve seen so many great things from it. My husband has been able to work a couple days a month with his uncle that will be able to bring some extra income. Since I’ve been able to focus more on my bra fitting business, I’ve had double the inquiries!
I haven’t felt so much clarity in my life for a long time. For the longest time I was trying to do everything when it came to running my blog and business. I realized I couldn’t do everything and that was ok. I had get rid of what I couldn’t do and didn’t love anymore. But also focus on a few things that I’m good at instead of trying to do a little of everything.
I made this big leap towards what I really want to do with my life. It’s taken a long time to get where I am today, and to get the strength and courage to do it. I feel stronger since taking that leap of faith. I’ve always said that I don’t want to spend my life doing things I’m not passionate about. I feel like taking an assessment of my life and really asking myself, “do I feel passionate spending my time on this?” If I don’t then that’s my que to take a different course.
Now that I don’t have the stress and worry, and have extra time I’ve been able to focus on the things I really want to. By doing this for a couple of days I feel so much happier. I feel like I’m really in the driver seat and taken control of where I want to go in my life.
If you feel like you have some things that are holding you back because of fear, I challenge you to take an internal inventory and prioritize what’s important in your life. Be brave. Take chances, take your life back, focus on what you want to do with your life. You only live once and a life full of regrets is no life at all.
I want to mention about this great company I’ve been able to get to know called Bridgewater Candle Company. Whenever someone buys one of their candles, they donate money that feeds an orphan child oversea for an entire day! Bridgewater has been able to donate almost 5 million meals! That’s amazing! Knowing that I’m helping someone else when I buy a product makes me feel like I’m really making a difference.
I have a couple of their candles in my home: in my office, my kitchen, and my bedroom and they’re seriously the best smelling candles I’ve ever smelled. Move over Anthropologie candles!
Now that I’m getting back into blogging again, I love lighting one of their candles in my office. The smell permeates throughout the room and makes me feel cozy, calm, I feel more productive, and my room smells freaking amazing. Seriously, I can smell the aroma of the candles when I leave the lids off of them and don’t even light them. That’s how nice and high quality these candles are.
I’m hosting a giveaway for a pair of Bridgewater Candles in my favorite scent, Sweet Grace on our Instagram account, so make sure to enter! Giveaway ends July 2nd!
*Thanks Bridgewater for the beautiful scented candles for my home. All opinions expressed on here are 100% mine.